My last post was Friday, May 13th. On that Friday, I didn't know I was about to have a mini-breakdown because I had lost my job on May 10th. I knew my last day at work was coming so I thought I would be okay with the fact I might not have a job for a while. However, I wasn't. I planned togive myself three days to wallow in my the grief, eat horrible food, and sit around and be uber lazy. Three days apparently for my brain wasn't enough.
Three days turned into almost three weeks. I was in a downward spiral, in a haze of confusion and I didn't see my way out. I've never been laid off or fired. I've never not worked, I've only been in transition. When I left previous jobs even knowing I didn't have another job lined up, before my last day hit I was already hired in another position or among the final candidates for another job. So shock came and I just spaced out and depression hit and it hit me hard. I'm not happy with the life I led over the past three weeks, but I'm going to put it behind me and move forward.
To start the progression I realized I needed to get out of New York and have an adventure to help me get my mental mojo back. So currently I'm in Seattle and will venture up to Vancouver for a few days. This trip will hopefully give me the resolve to return home and start fresh. This rebirth of sorts is only made possible because I have amazing friends. I'm truly grateful to have them in my life.
I look forward to reconnecting with you all.
I think there is no better place to get your mojo back then Seattle. Have a safe and peaceful trip, leave those worries behind, and return with energetic passion for the next chapter in your life. You. Got. This.
ReplyDeleteSorry for the crappy situation TJ. Sometimes, it just bees that way.
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a great time in the loveliest place on earth - the pacific northwest! The scenery there should inspire you and help you get your mojo back.
You've got friends on the east coast, too! It may be hard to recognize some days, but you are truly blessed.
When God closes a door he opens a window. Or something like that. I know there's something about God, windows and doors in that saying but not really sure how it goes haha.
ReplyDeleteI hope things get better love. I'm sure they will. Just think of all the extra time you have to create amazing adventures. It's like those books 'Choose Your Own Adventure'. But it's not a book. It's your life. So live it the way you want. And we'll all be here for you along the way. :)
Have fun in Seattle and give Sharon a hug for me!
Oops, did I say hug in that last comment? I meant um.. bum tap. Ah hell, I meant hug. Give her a hug.
ReplyDeleteThank goodness for friends.
ReplyDeleteYes, TJ, I'm still here and always will be. Sometimes it'll take me awhile to comment but I'm around. If you ever need me, holler and I'll drop whatever else is going on. I've usually got a bunch of things going on that are never as important as the people I care about.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your depression. I knew you had lost your job but didn't realize how deeply it had affected you. I feel bad that you had to go through such a bad couple of weeks. It does seem like we have those rough patches so we can appreciate when things are going good. I'm hoping your trip to Seattle and time spent with good friends will bring you out of the funk. When you get home, you can work on making things better and finding the job that's right for you. Hugs, my dear. :-)
TJ, I'm still here too, and I'm so very sorry to hear of your reaction to your work situation.
ReplyDeleteLike you, I've never been without a job for any meaningful length of time, unless you count the time I handed in my notice and moved back to the UK from Europe to start my life in earnest, many many years ago.
I even found it hard being on maternity leave - despite the exhaustion.
But, as others have said, you're doing the right thing by visiting with friends, getting away from your immediate surroundings and taking time out to recharge your mental and emotional batteries. I only wish there was something more I could do...
{{Hugs}} to you from across the pond.
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Hoping to see you posting again soon - and hope that your trip helped you through what must have been a really tough time!
ReplyDeleteBeen there. Take all the time you need. You will know when you are healed enough to be an asset to the workforce and you will again have your life back. Maybe even a BETTER life than before!
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